And How It Completely Changed What We Did Next I remember exactly where I was when I read it. It was late. The house was quiet. I was doing what I imagine most autism parents do -- sitting alone in the dark, searching for answers on my phone while everyone else slept. I wasn't looking for bad news. I was looking for hope. For a map. For some confirmation that the path we were on was actually leading somewhere. What I found instead was a study that completely stopped me. The R